Thursday, September 24, 2009

Growth spurt

The past couple of weeks have been pretty trying on my patience and my tolerance. Instead of getting mad - or, scratch that. Instead of letting myself stay mad, I am choosing to let go and focus on staying the course.

You see, this past week, I've been targeted and judged unfairly. In the recent past, when this has happened, I would get so infuriated that it was unhealthy. I couldn't think straight, I couldn't focus: All I could think about was this unfair treatment that infuriated me. I would be so mad that I was afraid of myself, not really in a bad way, but I just knew that this behavior wasn't healthy. This time, however, I am trying to see the instance as an opportunity for growth. An opportunity to work on something that I know I've been needing to work on anyway. And it still infuriates me. But I'm trying to teach myself how to be more tolerant and more patient. I think this is a real learning point for me right now... if I can just get through it! :-)

Monday, September 21, 2009

Daily grumblings and Not Me!

Sometimes, I just want to crawl into a little hole, just me and Mike, and just live. Nothing else. Because, by crawling into the little hole and just living, I would in effect be kicking out people, albeit mostly family, who have nothing better to do with their time than to judge me. Simply put, those who matter, matter. Those who don't, don't. And if you want to matter, stop judging. I don't have time to deal with things, like your judging, that don't matter. Or maybe it's just that I'm lazy, because it takes more energy to be mad, and because I don't like to be mad, so maybe I'm just being lazy by withdrawing myself from those who make me mad. So that I don't have to listen to you try to make me mad.

Anyway, enough of that. I wanted to try something that I've been thinking about for a while:

This morning as I was getting ready, I most certainly did not put on gray socks with brown pants, because I haven't done laundry yet. I would never mix black and brown tones together.

Yesterday, when helping watch my good friend's daughter, I did not bring over paints and a canvas and allow her to paint, and I most certainly did not rub blue paint out of her hair in the bath later.

When we ran out of sweet tea at the house, I most certainly did not take leftover fruit punch and mix it with leftover pineapple juice to drink instead because I was too lazy to just make another pot of tea. Nope, not me!

That's about all I can think of right now. Toodles!

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Tree, Round 2

So, as I thought this week on what the second phase of my artwork would be like, the color orange kept "coming to me," as they say. We finally went to Michael's last night and got some, because 'lo and behold, I didn't have that color. I took some time this morning to work on it, and here is what came to mind. I still don't have it exactly like I want it - which is to say that I don't know exactly how I want it just yet - so it's definitely not finished. I realized from my first draft that I didn't have a tree trunk (go figure that I would forget something like that!), so I added one into this one.

View my incomplete 2nd draft below, and feel free to make any changes to the poll for better or worse (though better, I hope)!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

More Artwork

I'm beginning to like this stuff! Below is the 1st phase of my 2nd painting. Not done but had to stop to let the first paints dry. Got any (easy) ideas for me to make? Send them my way! Got any ideas of what the title of this one should be? Go ahead and say it! And looky over to the left and take my poll while you're at it. :)