For the past two months, we have had it rough. Watching my aunt die, finding out that my mom also has cystic fibrosis, Mike's relief quitting and him being off his schedule/not knowing when he's going to be home. Work, in all honesty, has been a constant, even though we lost a big client and I've been subconciously worried about my job security.
Then in the middle of all of this I have a panic attack that sends me to the ER (although at the time I had no idea that it was a panic attack). Having had a few more of them - most usually when Mike is gone - has got me thinking that it's time. When the sound of your child awake over the baby monitor sends you into a full-blown panic attack, it's time. Do you know what it's like to feel like you're about to pass out at 3 a.m. and know that you're the only person there for your baby? More than once I've had to call friends and family in the middle of the night to come care for Cole because I did not think I could do one more thing.
It's time.
About Me
- stacy
- I have the best husband ever, the cutest little boy I've ever seen, and one loyal (and mildly annoying) Labrador Retriever. Contact me at: stacyleigh01@yahoo.com
1 comment:
Sorry to hear about your struggles. My husband suffers from panic attacks and they often come in the middle of the night. He discovered he had some triggers like eating or drinking after 7 seemed to bring them on more as well as caffine. I hope you find some relief. Are you coming to the Arkansas Women Blogger conference? There are less than 2 weeks left to register! Check out our website to register soon! We hope you come! http://arkansaswomenbloggers.blogspot.com/p/featured-blogger.html
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