Life has been so crazy for the past month or so. I don't even know where to start.
Cole's sleeping habits have been pretty brutal. Daddy is home one week and gone the next. I'm exhausted.
A little over a month ago I find out that my aunt had cystic fibrosis. That was about a week before she passed away. A gruelling week of travel with a 2-month old, with so many emotions that I'm still trying to process.
Two weeks ago, I find out my mom has CF as well. Still, so many emotions to process. Glad that she found out before any real symptoms showed up. Sad because I don't know what it means for her. Scared because I now know that I carry the gene, and will probably end up getting tested, too. Scared for her. So many 'What if's?' ...
Then work has been quite busy, and trying to juggle getting a baby out of the house by myself on weeks that Mike is gone has been a real challenge. Not to mention the added stress of a little bit of job insecurity.
I feel like I'm running on steam most days. So much stress right now. I feel like I'm at the end of my rope, but the stress has no mercy: Mike's relief on the rig quit, so now he is on call 24/7 until they hire someone else and get them trained. He was home for 4 days and had to leave again tonight.
I don't ask for anything, but our family could really use some prayers right now.
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Cowards
I saw a story on KATV tonight that made my head spin. Here is the link: http://www.katv.com/Global/story.asp?S=14259671.
Essentially, a state lawmaker has introduced a bill that would ban abortions after 21 weeks of pregnancy. He is including supporting documents such as babies at different stages of development in the womb, in order to support his cause. Yet the committee it has to go through has ruled that some of the pictures he is using - those of a live baby holding a doctor's finger during an in-utero surgery, not an abortion - are too graphic.
Too graphic.
So, that's how the Committee on Public Health is going to kill this bill? By saying that a picture of a baby holding onto someone's finger is too graphic?
So many thoughts are going through my head right now.
If you don't support this bill, have the balls to come right out and say it. But don't belittle it's sponsor by saying that he provided "graphic images." To me, that is cowardly. Members of the committee are saying that they don't want the images, which are publicly recorded, to be seen by children.
Well, you know what? I think it would help young kids to more fully grasp the issue of life and abortion. Don't hide the truth from them. They need to know and understand that a baby - even one merely 4 months old in the womb - is a person. It has fingers and toes. A heartbeat. The ability to grasp and feel objects. It is alive.
I am going to write to the representative who introduced this bill and offer my support.
Essentially, a state lawmaker has introduced a bill that would ban abortions after 21 weeks of pregnancy. He is including supporting documents such as babies at different stages of development in the womb, in order to support his cause. Yet the committee it has to go through has ruled that some of the pictures he is using - those of a live baby holding a doctor's finger during an in-utero surgery, not an abortion - are too graphic.
Too graphic.
So, that's how the Committee on Public Health is going to kill this bill? By saying that a picture of a baby holding onto someone's finger is too graphic?
So many thoughts are going through my head right now.
If you don't support this bill, have the balls to come right out and say it. But don't belittle it's sponsor by saying that he provided "graphic images." To me, that is cowardly. Members of the committee are saying that they don't want the images, which are publicly recorded, to be seen by children.
Well, you know what? I think it would help young kids to more fully grasp the issue of life and abortion. Don't hide the truth from them. They need to know and understand that a baby - even one merely 4 months old in the womb - is a person. It has fingers and toes. A heartbeat. The ability to grasp and feel objects. It is alive.
I am going to write to the representative who introduced this bill and offer my support.
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Life as Mom
Whew! These past 5 weeks have flown by so fast! What can I say about my new life?
It has been somewhat of a blur. A sleepless haze where the days all seem to run together. Most days, I have to concentrate really hard to figure out what day of the week it is. And I have, on several occasions, worn my shirt backwards (in public) for hours before noticing or smooched a cute little bottle during a feeding by accident instead of the cute little boy my kiss was intended for.
Before Cole, if i ONLY got five hours of sleep I was cranky all day long. Now, if I get three hours of continuous sleep, I feel recharged like I can last another 8 hours. LOL. This is definitely the hardest job I have ever had, hands down, but it is also so so worth it.
I find myself wanting to Google the lyrics to nursery rhymes because the only one I can remember is Twinkle Twinkle Little Star. I'm pretty sure Cole is going to be singing that one first! Sadly, I also find myself Googling things like what color poop my newborn should have and worrying about him getting sick because I didn't wash his bottles before putting them in the dishwasher AND afterward. Or turning all his socks inside out and checking for little strings that could get caught around his toes and cut off circulation and cause his toes to fall off and...
Wow, things have changed!
And seeing Mike with Cole is just so precious. I knew he would be good with him, but there are many things that he knows how to do that I don't. I have learned a lot from him. I know he was apprehensive about not having the "mother's intuition," but I think there may be a father's intuition, too. He definitely keeps me sane.
It has been somewhat of a blur. A sleepless haze where the days all seem to run together. Most days, I have to concentrate really hard to figure out what day of the week it is. And I have, on several occasions, worn my shirt backwards (in public) for hours before noticing or smooched a cute little bottle during a feeding by accident instead of the cute little boy my kiss was intended for.
Before Cole, if i ONLY got five hours of sleep I was cranky all day long. Now, if I get three hours of continuous sleep, I feel recharged like I can last another 8 hours. LOL. This is definitely the hardest job I have ever had, hands down, but it is also so so worth it.
I find myself wanting to Google the lyrics to nursery rhymes because the only one I can remember is Twinkle Twinkle Little Star. I'm pretty sure Cole is going to be singing that one first! Sadly, I also find myself Googling things like what color poop my newborn should have and worrying about him getting sick because I didn't wash his bottles before putting them in the dishwasher AND afterward. Or turning all his socks inside out and checking for little strings that could get caught around his toes and cut off circulation and cause his toes to fall off and...
Wow, things have changed!
And seeing Mike with Cole is just so precious. I knew he would be good with him, but there are many things that he knows how to do that I don't. I have learned a lot from him. I know he was apprehensive about not having the "mother's intuition," but I think there may be a father's intuition, too. He definitely keeps me sane.
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